It’s been a couple months since my last posting and this posting is coming from my heart. We are still in our current journey, unemployed, yet surviving. It has not been easy and we have had to make major adjustments and learn to be content in our current situation. It is not easy. The Hubs and I have been at different levels throughout this journey, The Hubs has been up when I’ve been down and vice versa until one day we both hit bottom.
You see, we have a mutual agreement and understanding since we started dating that we would speak whatever came to mind, a no filter approach, knowing in our hearts that whatever came out would not intentionally be said to hurt the other person. We’ve practiced this 99% of our relationship and the 1% we get off track and start filtering what we say, problems arise.
When we hit bottom we said what was on our minds and cleared the air. We both knew what was being said wasn’t the truth however it was how we were feeling for a long time. Finally it was said. Finally I could breath again. Finally we were at our breaking point and there was no place to go. No place except up.
Up to our Lord. Up to our Jesus. Up to I AM.
Even though the storm is still around us, the focus isn’t solely on the rain but on the knowledge that all storms come to an end and the sun shines again.
Throughout this journey we have received nuggets of I AM’s promises. Nuggets of anonymous donations of money or gift cards; nuggets of decreased utility bills; nuggets of food lasting longer in the refrigerator; nuggets of gallons of gasoline going further; nuggets everywhere.
I know the truth – I AM loves me. I AM provides for me and my family. I AM wants the best for his brides and children. I AM is in control and even if he doesn’t change my current situation, He still loves me. And that’s all I need to know. The truth.