Still in the storm

It’s been a couple months since my last posting and this posting is coming from my heart.  We are still in our current journey, unemployed, yet surviving.  It has not been easy and we have had to make major adjustments and learn to be content in our current situation.  It is not easy.  The Hubs and I have been at different levels throughout this journey, The Hubs has been up when I’ve been down and vice versa until one day we both hit bottom.

You see, we have a mutual agreement and understanding since we started dating that we would speak whatever came to mind, a no filter approach, knowing in our hearts that whatever came out would not intentionally be said to hurt the other person.  We’ve practiced this 99% of our relationship and the 1% we get off track and start filtering what we say, problems arise.

When we hit bottom we said what was on our minds and cleared the air.  We both knew what was being said wasn’t the truth however it was how we were feeling for a long time.  Finally it was said.  Finally I could breath again.  Finally we were at our breaking point and there was no place to go.  No place except up.

Up to our Lord.  Up to our Jesus.  Up to I AM.

Even though the storm is still around us, the focus isn’t solely on the rain but on the knowledge that all storms come to an end and the sun shines again.

Throughout this journey we have received nuggets of I AM’s promises.  Nuggets of anonymous donations of money or gift cards; nuggets of decreased utility bills; nuggets of food lasting longer in the refrigerator; nuggets of gallons of gasoline going further; nuggets everywhere.

I know the truth – I AM loves me.  I AM provides for me and my family.  I AM wants the best for his brides and children.  I AM is in control and even if he doesn’t change my current situation, He still loves me.  And that’s all I need to know.  The truth.

Dancing in the Storm

If you have been following my last couple postings about the New Journey, here is a slammer…The Hubs lost his job.  We are officially unemployed.

Running to I AM, this is what He said…(italicized words are from I AM)

Well today is the day Daddy.  Today is The Hub’s last day on the job.  After several days of letting it sink in, it is here and I don’t know my emotions.  They are all over the place.

I know my daughter and all you need to do is rest.

I don’t know how to do that.  Yes your yoke is easy, I know, but how can I rest?

By not worrying about tomorrow.  Not worrying about the future or what will happen.  Keep your eyes on Me and you will walk through this storm.  Not run but walk.  As the rain starts, most people run to seek shelter yet few walk.  Enjoy the rain as it falls down on you and cleanses, refreshes, satisfies you.  Don’t be afraid to get a little wet now and then.  You take a shower every night, right?


Are you afraid of water in that controlled setting?


So why be afraid of the rain, water, when I’m controlling it?  Rest as the water runs down your beautiful body.  Let it not only cleanse you but refresh you too.  Storms of life are for a limited time.  It doesn’t rain forever so in the meantime find the joy in the water, rest and sit down in it and let me do My work. 

Well I can’t argue that

No you can’t and you shouldn’t.  Let Me. You rest

Wow, all I can say is WOW!  Looking at Matthew 7:25-34 during the Sermon on the Mount, Jesus talks about worry.

“Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in bars, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them.  Are you not much more valuable than they? (26) Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?(27)”

“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.  Each day has enough trouble of its own (34)”

Who can argue that our Daddy will provide for His children if we just rest and know in our hearts we will be okay?