Hello again!  I pray everyone had a relaxing Memorial Day holiday.  Instead of enjoying BBQ or playing on the water, we decided to potty train my daughter.  We celebrated the holiday with several loads of laundry, rug cleaner and Tylenol.

At last the night came and as I drifted to sleep I was spiritually attacked.  As stated in my Spiritual Warfare #1 posting, I’ve been attacked several times however recent attacks have been when #1) I’m asleep or #2) falling asleep.  I began to relax and was quickly prompted to look to my left followed by a feeling of fear.  After a day of running after a toddler, I refused to look so the attack continued as I walked to my daughter’s room as she was crying out.  Immediately I recognized what was going on and I demanded in Jesus’s name for the demon to leave and having authority over my daughter for the demon to leave her alone too.  The words continued to flow and the feelings of fear lifted.

Since she cried out the rest of the night, I took the opportunity to talk to I AM and here’s what we talked about…

As always, I AM’s responses to me are italicized.

Why do I get spiritually attacked when I’m trying to fall asleep?  At one of my weakest times you allow an attack, why is that?

To point yourself back to me.

Okay but I’m falling asleep, how can I point back to you when my body is resting?

Are you resting in me?  You don’t tell me good night. You don’t talk to me before going to sleep like you do The Hubs.  Are you really resting in me?

Well you have a point.

Learn how to actually rest in Me and see what happens.


You know the answer to that.

Okay, (as I’m smiling)

Now go back to rest.  Today is going to be hard.

Thanks for the warning! I love you Daddy.

And I love you Faith.

Yes, as you read this journal I questioned I AM on why things happened.  As you know in Job 1:12, The LORD gave Satan permission to attack Job.  I AM is in charge of the enemy and still has to report back to I AM.  This brings me comfort because I know I AM is still in charge, will allow bad things to happen for his good and I’ll always be in good hands.

Another interesting part of this journal is I AM’s reminder for me to rest in Him.  Reread the story of when I AM first called Samuel particularly where Samuel was lying down to rest (1 Samuel 3:3).  Samuel was resting in the house of the LORD where the ark of God was.  He was so close to I AM!!  I know we can’t sleep in a church however we can remember to talk to I AM before falling asleep, as I AM kindly reminded me.

As Matthew 11:28-29 reminds us:

“…Come to me, all who labor and are heavy lade, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gently and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy, and my burden in light.”

Spiritual Warfare #1

Since we are talking about visions, let me share with you my first visual experience with spiritual warfare.  Yes, spiritual warfare.  As I mentioned in My Tiger post I first started my journaling experience with my eyes shut.  Yes, 99% of the time I could reread my discussion with I AM and by having my eyes shut I opened myself up to visual experiences.

This particular night about 1 ½ years ago, The Hubs and I were journaling together after getting the kids to bed.  I was having a hard time clearing my mind and hearing from I AM when I suddenly saw him.  He was a handsome man dressed in ancient Roman war attire – tunic, cuirass, and bow and arrow.  He did not have a helmet and I could not see past his calves.  He was staring straight at me and began to shoot arrows at me, systematically one after another.  My initial response was, “what the hell is going on”, and I opened my eyes.  The Hubs was still journaling so I closed them again and this solider was still shooting at me.  The only thing I knew to do was to start singing to I AM.  Screaming inside my head I began to sing, “Our God is an Awesome God, He reigns from heaven above”, over and over again until the solider was gone.  I opened my eyes and tried to make sense of it while waiting for The Hubs to finish his experience.

When I first saw the solider I thought he was another sign of protection, like my tiger, and was open to seeing what he would say and do.  However when no words were said and his actions started to frighten me, I knew it wasn’t from I AM.  Please understand that I AM will never provoke feelings of fear, worry or doubt.  I AM wants you to know He loves you and wants to have a relationship with you, not scare you away.

The Hubs and I debriefed afterwards and agreed this experience was spiritual warfare.  This was not my first experience with spiritual warfare however it was my first visual experience.  I’ve been attacked several times since becoming a Christian however this time was different, I could see the attacker.

We believe in spiritual warfare but not the kind seen on television.  We believe satan’s minions are on a mission to ‘attack’ people by putting WORDS of doubt, fear, pride, greed anything that puts our focus away from I AM.  The enemy wants the attention and glory therefore will do anything to get it.  We do not believe angels are fighting demons in the spiritual world.  The demons are attacking humans since I AM created humans in his image and gave humans the world to rule over (Genesis 1:26-28).

A reason I didn’t open my eyes when I first saw him was because he was attractive.  According to television and misunderstandings, the enemy is some awful looking creature that disgusts you whenever you look at it.  However, this is not the truth.  Just as satan was a beautiful angel (Ezekiel 28:12-15), his minions can take on many disguises.  The reason I shut my eyes after I saw I was getting attacked was because I wanted to make sure what I saw was really happening and I wanted to stand my ground.  The arrows did not touch me.  The arrows were not on fire.  The arrows were coming towards me but never reached me.

We believe when it comes to spiritual warfare, all Christians should do is STAND. Stand in the truth that Jesus has won the battle, Stand in the truth of The Bible, Stand in our relationship with I AM, just STAND. In times of trouble, I have the habit of singing to I AM.  In this time of trouble, I stood there praising I AM. He enjoys a joyful noise (Psalm 95:1-2) and I know He is the only one who enjoys my harmony.

We are told in The Bible to put on the armor of God (Ephesians 6:10-18).  We believe this armor of God is actually putting on I AM.  He is the truth, He has battled the enemy and He has WON.  When I was being attacked, I stood firm, praising I AM protected by His armor.  And so can you.